My name is Fate. I'm 21 years old. I stand 5'9. I weigh 185lbs. Vital Stats 40-36-42.
I've always been big and tall since birth.
During my younger years I didn't bother at all if others would call me names such as Dambuhala, Baboy, Biik, Higante, Panget, Big Show and so on. I don't really care because so as long my family loves me there's no point in being affected. When I turned 12, I started having crushes in school and most of the time I'm always ignored because my friends are prettier, sexier, richer and smarter than me. "Fate, pretty ka sana kaso ang taba mo malaki ka pa sa Mommy ko".
So that's how it all started--insecurity started sank in until such time I don't want to go to school anymore because I felt incredibly inferior. But when my father told me that in his eyes, I will always be the most beautiful girl. I started proving my worth. I became active in school, friendly and positive until I reached high school. I tried eliminating junk foods, soft drinks and chocolates in my life. It was so hard to diet, control my food intake and exercise. Until such time, I didn't really care at all with my flaws. So instead of being ashamed of my imperfections, I started focusing on my assets such as my confidence, wit and positive outlook in life.
I guess it also helped that I'm an active Youth for Christ member, I always felt God's love no matter how I look. I always remember that what matters in my creator's eyes is the beauty that I have inside. I also focused myself with my goals in life. I exposed myself with the optimistic people because I know it's contagious. Reading fashion magazines starting from Candy, Seventeen, Cosmo and now Preview helped me to look good no matter how big I am. I read Bo Sanchez, Paolo Coelho and Nina Garcia's books all the time to keep me inspired and happy with my life.
I'm proud to say that at the age of 21 I've accomplished so much in life. I started working at the age of 17 while studying not because for money but for the reason that I want to be fulfilled as a woman, I want to be self-made. I also encountered a lot of failures, discriminations along the way but I'd rather use them as my learning experiences at the end of the day. I recently had my own version of Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert last April I quit my job, broke up with my long time boyfriend, left my comfort zone to get to know myself better. I went to Singapore and Indonesia for more than a month on my own. Through that experience I was able to get to know myself more than ever. I've seen a lot of thin girls abroad but instead of being jealous I actually appreciated my own body more, I love how different I am.
For me, Life is too short so Live it well. Don't dwell on the things that will hinder your success in life. Focus on the things that will enrich your life instead. And always remember at the end of the day, God created our fats, curves, stretch marks and our body type for a reason. What really matters is how we look at things, how we love and take good care of ourself.
Your body is God's gift so better appreciate it before it's too late. :)
